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My Oasis

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He said ‘I DO’ long before I was formed.

Before I opened my eyes, He called me BELOVED.

I am His, and He is Mine.

His love, more delightful, more intoxicating than an ocean of wine,

the fragrance of my voice is pleasing to Him

as it drops sweetness as the honeycomb,

milk and honey  under the tongue of my worship.

He’s adorned me with strings of silver studded with gold,

my lips a scarlet ribbon.

 

I am a rose of Sharon,

a lily of the valleys.

 

From the deepest clefts of hell, he ransomed me,

through a blood washed romance

he holds me unblemished, His greatest prize.

I delight to sit in his shade,

and his fruit is sweet to my taste

Let him lead me to the banquet hall,

his banner over me is love.

 

He came,

leaping across the mountains,

bounding over the hills.

It is a season of singing

 

He came,

my beloved  into his garden

to taste its choice fruits

an orchard of pomegranates

with every kind of incense tree,

a garden fountain,

a well of flowing water

streaming down

to drink His fill of love

 

He appears like the dawn,

fair as the moon, bright as the sun,

majestic as the stars in procession.

May the wine go straight to my beloved,

flowing gently over lips and teeth.

I belong to my beloved,

and his desire is for me.

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How I see it/How God sees it

My Rescuer, in the Valley, Desolate

 

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In the valley, desolate

I locked eyes with my rescuer

He sang to me a song of love

He sang to me a song of peace

He sang to me a song of freedom

He sang to me the song of one beloved

 

Oh how sweet the song he sang

oh how lovely the honey that flowed from his lips

His words ricocheted off the walls of my defenses

’till I poured out all of me for His taking

Jesus, my every desire

His voice enraptured as He sang

 

Stand Still

Stand Still

and see my salvation

Stand Still

For the battle is already won

 

I will fight for you,

You shall hold your peace

Just go ahead, just go ahead

Hold your peace

I am for you

I’ll never leave

 

 

Holding onto my dreams

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alluring

probing

uninvited

stealthily

 

he comes.

 

Grabs hold of my dreams

with a firm grip, he wraps them around his tall sturdy frame

 

he won’t let go.

 

Here I am, captured

by lore,

uncertain whether to play or flee

certain that I want to know how this ends

before it begins.

 

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The rain-

it won’t let up-

the wipers, broken-

the tires-

worn-

rear-view mirror-

fractured-

my hands are shaking-

do I get out of the car?

The car is me.

 

I cannot run from me.

When I cannot see, when I cannot feel, when the pain is real-

when right and wrong look the same-

when the dreams are a dark fast paced mist-

and the maze has me blindsided-

 

 

You are on my side.

You tell my fears to run-

your love surrounds me-

when my thoughts wage war-

You are on my side.

‘Take a seat’ He said

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‘I am tired of waiting in the wings.’ That’s me wining again.

‘Take a seat.’ He says ‘Lay your head on my lap, and listen’

‘But I’ve had my ear bent to hear your voice this entire time. What new thing could you possibly say to me now?’

‘That you ask that question in itself should reveal to you where your ear has been- because it’s not been bent toward me.’ He says this with a rebuke on His face, but I can tell He’s not angry.

‘I have loved you eternally. There’s not a desire in your heart I cannot give. More than you, I want all your dreams to come to pass.’

‘Love? Are you joking? What kind of person saves a lamb only to cast it to wolves? You say you love me, but I don’t feel loved. I literally have to beg for love handouts from jaded individuals whose concept of love is either lust or exploitation.’

‘And what of you? Have you loved? Show me one person you have loved unconditionally?’ he asks

‘But I cannot give what I do not have.’ I grudgingly respond.

‘That is not true. For as long as you have me as your motive for everything you do and give, you have love.’

‘See the green around you?’

I look around me and see endless lush green fields, and falling leaves.

‘There’s my faithfulness.’ he runs his hands through my hair and tilts my face to his.

‘When will you stop running from me?’ ‘Why is it so hard for you to trust me?’

‘Hebrews 13:8 says that you never change.  I don’t understand you. I cannot predict you, I cannot manipulate you, and I cannot change you. I think you’re too strict. Too rigid for me.’

‘Change is not in my nature. Besides why would you want to change me?’ He asks

‘Change is farmiliar.’ I should be able to manipulate you- you know, hide a few things from you, move you with my tears. I need you unconditionally on my side.’

‘I am always on your side. And I am moved by your heart- a true heart full of faith.’

‘It doesn’t feel like you’re on my side most days. I mean, seriously- you hold the world in your hands, you can move and change anything you want at any time, but why am I crumbling under the weights of life. I feel like I am literally carrying everything alone- why why why?’ Now I am on my feet jumping up and down in anger.

He pats the empty seat next to him and beckons me to return to His side.

‘Peace be still. You’re my child, and you will always be, but I expect you to behave maturely.  Let wisdom be your best friend. And trust me.’ He says. ‘Keep your eyes on me. Your hand is securely held in mine. I am with you every step of the way. There’s nowhere you go that I have not been.’

Tears running down my face, I ask. ‘Why is life so hard, and empty and filled with misery?’

‘Keep your eyes on me.’

Staring into His eyes, I am comforted.

‘Come here.’

‘But I already am.’

‘Your heart has strayed again.’

‘I gave you imagination,’ he says ‘but my wisdom trumps that every time. Obey my voice. Forget what you think you know. Only my word gives life, direction, and clarity.’

‘I love you. You know that right?’  I ask

‘Of course.’

Dancing with God.

 

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He says ‘I have loved you before the sands of time were made: I love you still. You are chosen as mine.’

We stand so far apart, as the music plays. I would rather not hear the music.

‘Your love is wasted on me. I’d not recognize it even if you turned it to liquid gold and threw it in my face.’ I respond.

Taking a trek down memory lane, I reflect on everyone who ever said they loved me.

Shaking my head vehemently, I tell him to go give his love to someone who deserves it. Deep down, I am afraid he will love me, and then walk away.

As though reading my mind he says ‘This love doesn’t run’

‘We’ll see won’t we?’ I respond.

He smiles and says come dance with me.

‘You will not take no for an answer?’ I wonder out loud.

‘Perfect love casts out all fear.’ He says.

‘I have already chosen you for mine, and to not love you is not possible for me’ he continues. ‘Anything you fear, any road you think too dangerous I have already walked. I have chained death itself, for you.’

‘Look at me. Keep your eyes on me.’ He implores.

‘Don’t see what I’ve done. I know that you see my heart. Look at everyone I have claimed to love. I am not even certain I have it in me to love.’

‘Dance with me.’ He says. ”Nothing else matters for as long as you live but this endless dance with me.’

And the song starts to play.

We Dance

Bethel Music

 

You steady me
Slow and sweet, we sway
Take the lead and I will follow

[Verse 2]
Finally ready now
To close my eyes and just believe
That You won’t lead me
Where You don’t go

[Chorus]
When my faith gets tired
And my hope seems lost
You spin me round and round
And remind me of that song
The one You wrote for me
And we dance
And we dance

[Verse 3]
And I’ve been told
To pick up my sword
And fight for love
Little did I know
That Love had won for me
Here in Your arms

[Verse 4]
You still my heart again
And I breathe You in
Like I’ve never breathed ’till now

[Chorus]
When my faith gets tired
And my hope seems lost
You spin me round and round
And remind me of that song
The one You wrote for me
And we dance
Oh, we dance
Oh, when we dance with kiss
Oh, a dance just you and me
And I will lock eyes
With the One who’s ransomed me
The One who gave me joy for mourning
And I will lock eyes
With the One who’s chosen me
The One who set my feet to dancing?

Oh, I will lock eyes
With the One who’s ransomed me
The One who gave me joy for mourning
Oh, Why [?] the One who’s chosen me
The One who set my feet to dancing?

[Verse 5]
Oh, We dance..
Oh, We dance..
Oh, We dance, we dance..
Oh, We dance..
Just You and me
It’s nice to know I’m not alone
I found my home here in Your arms
It’s nice to know I’m not alone
I found my home here in Your arms
It’s nice to know I’m not alone
I found my home here in Your arms
It’s nice to know I’m not alone
I found my home here in Your arms

 

And the song never ends…………….

Between the Tides

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Unlock my ears to hear your voice,

let me unravel at the brush of your breath on my neck,

as a furnace explodes in my chest,

my eyes eternally level with yours,

your eyes-the bright depth of a sunny sky.

Your voice has the power of thunder but the calming effect of an afternoon breeze

I want to hear all you say

my heart to the rhythm of your heartbeat,

but the tide rages and roars in my ears

my body alive and aflame to many passions and desires

they rip through me, and shred all logic.

 

I am now only an extension of the ebb and flow of the wind, sun, earth and sea,

I fight for what I cannot see,

I want what is denied me,

and reject what is offered me.

 

You say you’ve loved me since before the sands of time where made,

so I lounge on this beach and sift the sand through my fingers.

You say you love me still,

so I close my eyes and picture you, because I cannot see you

You say my worship is your fire,

so I lose myself in the melody of you

 

Am I truly chosen as yours?

It doesn’t feel that way,

but you say to live carnally is death

so how do I embrace and keep you,

and know that with every sensation, you are

that every rush of beauty, in taste, feel, sound, sight

is your love resounding

 

 

The Belonging

 

 

I am His belonging.

Because I am His belonging, He sets me securely on high ground and hems me in.

He honors me because I am His. He is committed to me as I am to Him.

I am deeply loved, cherished, and he delivers me from the arrows that fly in the day and the pestilence by night.

No evil or terror shall come near me. I know His name. The name above all names. He is my habitation.

No trouble will overwhelm me, because I am His. He goes before me, and after me, and every moment in between for I am the apple of His eye.

I will walk through fire and not be burned because He treasures me more than His own life.

Deserts flood with rivers because in Him is only life. In His eyes I am the lily of valleys and rose of Sharon.

Oceans part before me, at the whisper of His name. My heart yields and melts in His peace.

He adores the sound of my voice and endlessly nudges me to sing to His heartbeat. His Chambers are forever open to me. His love tastes better than ageless wine. He is the sun shining on me, and the whisper of the wind all around and inside me.

I am the sweet perfume He so loves to fill His atmosphere and His courts. He is my adornment. He says my eyes are two doves.

His banner over me is love, and His fruit is sweet to my taste.

His left hand is under my head, and His right hand embraces me. He says my lips drip nectar- honey and milk are under my tongue. In me He finds no fault. I am drunk on love. My heart remains awake, even when I am asleep.

Now the day breathes, and the shadows flee. I am His, He is mine.

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