my mind a battlefield, I am lost
thought I knew who I am,
but now doubts assail me.
it’s all foggy, I am under attack
I grope about in the darknesss
looking for answers
somehow even peace eludes me
I awake, assured of my next step
of who I have and want to be
but the day has it’s own agenda set
society, people, friends, strangers, each is reaching out
tugging at my conscience, my mind, seeking to dominate, to control
my thoughts, I would rather not think,
that is chaos itself I can’t even begin to describe.
my imagination, that is out of control
will I make it?
I don’t know. Does it matter?
no it doesn’t, as long as I keep moving.
the uncertainties do not matter
I have to stay in motion
But as things stand, I am more scared now than I have ever been
I thrive on having my way, being in control of my life, my decisions
And now, I don’t know.
I am so lost inside, I pray desperately, that the maker will find me
Find me before I am no more.
Evil, once an illusion is becoming so real, no longer in the shadows
But now battling light for all it’s worth