i wanted to say something to day, just to celebrate you,
even now I look about me but there’s nothing but ashes
such high expectations! I sit, dogged by nothing but regrets,
because I dared hope, hope that this year would be special
bringing with it something to cherish, to remember
but no, it’s just emptiness, disappointment, poverty, and problems, endless problems. So I am going to apologise to me, because I fed myself on some senseless nonsense, and now my day is worse now than when it began. Hope such a dangerous thing.