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Laying down old Flames

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Self is my oldest flame-my greatest love. But I have come to realize, the more I think of myself, the more burdensome life gets.

So, out with the old(Self)- in with the new(Jesus).

2 Corinthians 3:18

But we all, with unveiled face, beholding as in a mirror the glory of the Lord, are being transformed into the same image from glory to glory, just as from the Lord, the Spirit.
This means, I am not allowed to harbor a thought or desire that Jesus has not thought concerning me.
God has been talking to me about holiness. Living as he does. Being his reflection.
My first question was, how on earth am I going to do this- until the spirit of God reminded me of

1 John 4:4 (NKJV)4 You are of God, little children, and have overcome them, because He who is in you is greater than he who is in the world.

It all started with a passion to listen to worship music that emphasizes God’s holiness, and at first I assumed it was just a reflection on his holiness until he spoke and said I am to be as he is.

1 John 4:17 (KJV)

17 Herein is our love made perfect, that we may have boldness in the day of judgment: because as he is, so are we in this world.

I then began to reflect on my shortcomings, because what was so easy for me to reject before had become so easy for me to accept. Weeks before, I had began to give in to things I knew my father God frowned upon.

Things like lust which I was certain I was immune to became so acceptable to me.

I was praying more than ever, but my flesh and inclination to sin also seemed to be more alive than ever.

Then God showed me that every time sin rears it’s ugly head,

Isaiah 59:19-21  (KJV)

19 So shall they fear the name of the Lord from the west, and his glory from the rising of the sun. When the enemy shall come in like a flood, the Spirit of the Lord shall lift up a standard against him.

Also God showed me we were cleaning house, and in the process of cleaning house, carpets must be removed, furniture moved, and light must be shone in all the darkest spaces so there’s a total cleansing.

So all my vices were coming to the fore- one at a time and the stronger they appeared, the more I felt the need to rely on God because my past ways of dealing with sin which included suppression, avoidance, self-hatred and relying on my own wisdom were not going to work.

God is holy and only he can reveal what that looks like in truth.

The more I rely on my own strength, the more I strive, and the harder I fall.

Thank God for who he is, his gentleness, his unconditional love- all of which combined showed me that by accepting my ‘Self’ to rule, I was being shortchanged.

Now I know that being a reflection of God is my true nature and every time I substitute Christ’s likeness for worldly pleasure, my heart breaks.

Just like a baby, I cannot live without the milk that only the Holy Spirit can give me.

I tried hating myself- thinking if I hated myself for sin, it’d discourage me from doing it. However, I find, in judging myself thus, I am judging everybody else thus.

John 3:17

17 For God did not send his Son into the world to condemn the world, but to save the world through him.

Hate did not move Jesus to die for me.

Love did.

He wants me to see myself as He is.

Free from sin

A worthy vessel, only complete in him.

So back to laying down old flames- I am not yet all I should be, but little by little, Christ is gaining ground in all of me, and I am excited for the day my heart, and soul shall mirror His.

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Death not my default end

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Death is not just physical. Death is first spiritual before it is physical.

Heartbreak, disappointment, desperation, lack, loss, ignorance are all forms of death because they unleash series of actions and reactions that- if they do not glorify God can only end in death.

1 John 3:14 We know that we have passed from death to life, because we love our brothers. The one who does not love remains in death. 

Growing up,  default reactions to every circumstance have been established. If someone does something that you never expected, or disappoints you, or wounds, you- the default response is anger- hurt- desire for revenge- or even despair.

But Jesus says forgive, let it go- he says let Him be your default setting so you don’t even have to debate whether or not to forgive and allow constant healing and renewal of your mind.

Romans 12:2 And be not conformed to this world: but be ye transformed by the renewing of your mind, that ye may prove what is that good, and acceptable, and perfect, will of God.

The landscape of the mind is constantly changing, contracting and expanding according to situations as they unfold.

In my life, the only constant I know- the one in whom there’s no shadow of turning whatever the situation is Christ. And he says we are his brothers- which means, we have his mind, and as such the ability to be as solid as the Rock He is.

Philippians 2:5-8 

In your relationships with one another, have the same mindset as Christ Jesus:

Who, being in very nature[a] God, did not consider equality with God something to be used to his own advantage

rather, he made himself nothing by taking the very nature  of a servant, being made in human likeness.

And being found in appearance as a man, he humbled himself by becoming obedient to death— even death on a cross!

Matthew 5:38, 39, 44

38 Ye have heard that it hath been said, An eye for an eye, and a tooth for a tooth:

39 But I say unto you …….. but whosoever shall smite thee on thy right cheek, turn to him the other also.

44 But I say unto you, Love your enemies, bless them that curse you, do good to them that hate you, and pray for them which despitefully use you, and persecute you;

Living in the world, while in Christ does not mean you will not suffer- Christ calls us to dwell in the secret place of His embrace.

With eyes fixed on his glorious face, we’re less and less aware of the pains of life, because Christ as a reward is so omniscient- all-knowing, all-wise, all-seeing; nothing can catch him by surprise.

If you’ve loved someone desperately, then you know there’s nothing you wouldn’t do for them.
Song of Solomon The Passion Translation 5:2

Arise, my love.

    Open your heart, my darling, deeper still to me.

    Will you receive me this dark night?

    There is no one else but you, my friend, my equal.

     I need you this night to arise and come be with me.

     You are my pure, loyal dove, a perfect partner for me.

      My flawless one, will you arise?

      For my heaviness and tears are more than I can bear.

      I have spent myself for you throughout the dark night.

 

Jesus died for me, for you, because he’d seen the end he wanted for us- a love pure and true that bleeds into every broken place, taking away trauma, giving us new memories- memories of God’s Throne room- the expense of His love- pure- unconditional- and totally without end.

When we begin to desire God to the point He desired us to die on the cross- then we see even those who wound us as he does and even while still in pain we can safely and honestly say- forgive him/her for they know not what they do.

Living a life that glorifies despair, anger, betrayal, hate – the list is endless. Anything that does not glorify God, is death in itself.

Thank God for his presence that reveals a fragrance that heals, restores, and shines a light in the darkest spaces of our lives redirecting us on a path of truest purest worship.

Psalm 22:3 But thou art holy, O thou that inhabitest the praises of Israel.

John 4;24 God is Spirit, and those who worship Him must worship in spirit and truth.

God is holy- and knowing that only by us becoming him could we truly honor him- he died and made us his habitation- his temple. A temple crafted by his own hands, with no human effort. That calls us to live to a standard only revealed to man through the Holy Spirit, through God’s word.

God is Holy, and we are his habitation- in the past, we have seen God destroy anything that defiled his temple. He is a proud jealous God who will do anything to defend his honor- thus letting his only son die.

He has made a way for us to live in honor of Him. Alive eternally.

So whatever you’re dealing with- practice eternally being more aware of God’s presence than the tribulations of living in the human body.

Hurt, pain, betrayal, loneliness, sexual frustration, lack, confusion- whatever it is, remind yourself, wherever you are, you’re in the presence of the Lord, and you love him.

Staying attuned to what the Holy Spirit is saying, meditating on God’s word- it takes practice and consistency- eventually it can become your default setting.

And God what a beautiful place to be.

NOTE: Psalm 46: 10“Be still and know that I am God; I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted over the earth.” 11 The LORD of Hosts is with us; the God of Jacob is our fortress. Selah…

 

 

 

The Wind in my Sails

sailFace to the wind,

I am Jumping in,

fear is such a sad way to live  life.

 

I have set sail

trust without borders

you know the end before my beginning

before my heart fathoms desire

you have met my every need

 

I will fly

I will walk on water

You are the wind in my sails

 

Into you

Falling

letting go

less of me

more of you

 

Love me something fierce #Rambling

 

The fire in your eyes burns something fierce in the depth of my soul,

and now surrounded by the bluest flame alive,

I know You love me something heavenly-

You love me something deep-

deeper than the deepest deep

you love me something holy

so still by the still waters I linger

so I can drink deep of the deep of your love

the closer we get, the more enamored I become

there’s no end to the discovery that is your affection

my head against your heart, I know I am home

because you love me something fierce and lovely and heavenly

because you love me something towering,

I lounge in the shadow of your wings

one with you,

at home with you

I am called by your name

because you love me something eternal

you love me something

something about your love

something protective about

the fire

the passion

the purity

the honesty

the truth that is our love

this song

this dance

it never ends

you are infinity

you love me something bigger and better than my heartbeat

because if I have you

I need no heartbeat

it is your breath in my lungs

your heart beats for mine

You love me something fierce

You love me something heavenly

You love me something towering

You love me something eternal

something pure

something new every morning

something Holy

Till I long as you long

 

I’ll live in Remembrance

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I realized you never left and that for this moment you planned ahead.

You’re a promise keeper:When you promised to never leave, I knew I could count on you eternally.

In my shoes you’ve walked.

For me your blood spill ricochets off the walls of time

The fire in your eyes lights up creation

The words I hear you speak realign my fate

Now I get to love you in return

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First.

You loved me first.

tossed crown aside

and dove heartfast

into a redemption plan

I had to be saved

and with love as your shield

you came.

 

Now I get to dive heartfirst

now I get to love you back

your love my banner

 

 

 

 

Fear and Trembling

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Fear

tremble

glory appears

now

 

Fear

no more

Put on

the full armor

now

 

Tremble

the good work

long began

He finishes

now

 

Hunger no more

thirst no more

living water flows

now

 

Tremble

your perfect prize

Christ

His resurrection power

All creation’s  desire

in you

Now

 

You’re beautiful

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I see your face, my beloved

and I am raptured.

I can’t quite look at you,

but I can’t look away either-

head and hair white as wool,

visage brighter than the sun at noon

your eyes twin flames of passion and grace

are a magnet.

 

Seven golden lampstands surround you,

the train of your robe with a golden sash around Your chest

fills the Holiest of Holies-

feet like refined burnished bronze- oh how beautiful

The Majesty…………….. the Mystery

seven stars spin their dance within your right hand

countless jewels adorn your ageless crown,

The Majesty………….. the Mystery

 

 

your voice the roar of many waters

the sound of many multitudes

I am yours and you are mine

How I love you

You’re my No. 1 fan

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heart pulsing to your beat

You fully inhabit the song I sing to you

here in the circle of your embrace

round and round

up we go

and I am fully aware

in the reflection of your word

of truest adoration

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